I will love you forever, Billion.
My baby girl Billion passed away yesterday and It was the most painful thing in the world. I felt like the my whole world shattered and everything was taken away from me. She was the love of my life. We basically did EVERYTHING together.
As I am writing this, I am in tears and disbelief on what happened, and why it had to happen. Maybe one day, i'll accept this. I don't know but My little girl, always remember that Mommy loves you and will always love you forever. I know God has a reason for everything and one day, we will meet again.
I love you forever.
I love you for always.
As long as I'm living,
My Baby Billion you'll be.
(1/19/9) - My Eulogy for my Baby Billion-
She kissed me and her dad nonstop this morning and we kept wondering why. She showed us so much love in this world.
Here I am asking why? Why did this have to happen? Why this early? But too much questions can make you crazy and here I am trying to accept this in tears with you wrapped In a blanket, lifeless.
My love, I will watch over your kids and hopefully they will grow to be as beautiful as you.
I love love love you so much. You gave us so much joy for two and a half years and I am so thankful to God for that.
A few hours ago you gave me and your daddy so much love with your happy licks and I will forever remember all our memories together.
You waited for us (Kirby and I) to be both here and then you rested. I just cannot. I will love you forever my Billion Balenciaga Bun-an.
This will not be the last time we will be seeing each other. 190919 will forever be in my mind. You will Be my first baby. I love you always and forever.
Billion July 7, 2017 - January 9, 2019
(1/10/19)- A Note for all your Condolences
For those I have not replied to (before closing this extremely, extremely painful chapter of my life) :
Thank you for your heartfelt condolences. I am still in so much , so much pain right now and I leave it up to God.
Billion may not be physically here with us already but I think she’s here in spirit watching everyone. She was even supposed to march down the aisle for our wedding this year but I guess, this was her time. We loved her so much not only as a pet but as our best friend, our daughter and our companion.
Some of you may not understand why I am so affected but Billion was with us from morning till night. She was even sharing the same food with us and goes with us everywhere. No need to explain. She was our daughter.
Guys, Always appreciate what you have. Love those around you , your family, your friends and everyone. Appreciate your pets and fur babies as well. Spend quality time with them and love them because they will always love you.
Billion gave us and everyone around her so so so much love that she waited for Me, Jasmin(my twin, her aunt), Ralph(bro-in-law, her uncle) andKirby(her dad) to be all complete , before she crossed the bridge just to say goodbye one last time.
I am still in tears writing this and so much questions are still in my head but I know that God has a reason for all of this. I trust you Lord. God bless everyone.
Thank you all.
-Jen and Kirby
For those who are wondering, Billion passed away in front of us in the recovery room. She was fully recovered at first but her vitals collapsed soon after. She waited for her dad to come in and then she left us. She passed away due to sepsis because of Birth Complicatios. She lived for 2 and a half years full of love. She has two beautiful babies who are fighting for survival. Please pray for them.
Thank you all again for your condolences, God bless everyone.